★Merry Christmas and Happy New Year 2011^^★

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And a happy new year2011

Hope that you guys,

Have Blast and wonderful day on your Christmas,

and

Joyful year 2011...

^^v

All this time...

Spending all my times waiting,

waiting for the right time,

for a break that will make it okey..

There always some reason,

to feel not good enough,

and its hard at the end of the day,

I need some distraction

just to get release arghhh...

All the Memories seep from my veins,

its may be empty or bad,

and somehow may be I'll find some peace there ...

I'm so tired of the straight lines,

and everywhere that I turn,

there's always this and thats wrong,

and there always something that will

change your mood to stormy day, and its keeps on twisting...

It don't makes no difference,

escaping one last time,

In this sweet madness,

and All this glorious sadness,

that brings me to this day...

But, 

In this Christmas time,

It may Change...

In the Arms of Lord Jesus Christ,

I may fly away from this dark cold feelings,

and the endlessness that I fear,

and may I find some comfort with His Blessing.

.....AMEN.....

Happy for You^^v

Hmmm....

Watching Both of u guys getting along well makes me happy.....

Spending times together...

The sweetness....

The happiness....

The comfort...

The Understanding....

The Love....

Hahahahha......

Damn....

Totally missing that kind of moment...

Hehehe^^v

someone to care for..

someone to Love for...

someone to hug...

someone to hold on to...

someone to be with...

someone you rely on...

Hope that u guys will last forever....

May God Bless Both of u guys...

 But...

please dont forget US here okey....

 Cye

Just feeling to blog it...^^V

Although friendships are some of the most joyful relationships

 that people have in their entire lives,

 sometimes they can be difficult.

 It is hard when a friend doesn't spend as much time with you as they used to

 or when a group of friends just doesn't get together as they used to.

It can be hard to miss friends 

and it can be hard to be a friend that is missed.

As life goes on,

 everyone gets more and more busy,

 and it can be hard to find time to fit all of your friends into your life.

 When lives are busy,

 it doesn’t mean that you or your friends have done anything wrong

 or that anyone has made a mistake,

 it only means that there simply isn't time to get together with friends

and just hang out.

Friendships are something that is alive

 something that needs to be tended and nurtured.

 If you want to keep your relationships healthy,

 be sure that you spend a little bit of time each day with or for your friends.

 Even if you are really busy,

 or in a time in your life when you are going to keep being busy for weeks or months,

 it is important to take a few moments

 to show your friends that you care about them.

 Remember that friendships will grow apart if you don't tend them.

You Need To UNDERSTAND what You Should Be Understands!!

STOP.....

THINK....

and....

UNDERSTAND!!!!!

you as matter of fact should understand

bcuz u are close to our heart...

No matter what u thnk...

what u  feel the best....

or right...

 must be considered before u said it...

I know the feeling of what u feel..

I ever felt it before too..

Yes I Did..

 You should look left n right... back n front...

even at any side...

bcuz u will hurt someone feelings...

I'm not hurt or what...

but still.....

PLZ....

I'm ALWAYS be someone U can Talk to...

I can be a Good listener...

If U let me...

Yes...

I maybe Wrong...

and MayBe Right...

We consider as close HEART....

NEVER Pretend that we dont care about each others...

p/s: No heart feelings if u know whom i'm talking whit....

i'd Never Been BZ Like this B4....

Friends,

sry, I dint spend my time with u guy lately,

YES, I did but Not ALL of US...

Sob....Sob...Sob....

But No Worries...

we can hangout soon...

this coming DEC..

I LOVE YOU GUYS

.....

....

...

..

.

fake smile 4 those idotz

i hate those stupid idiotz who ignore me when im serving them!

Birds Without fur to fly....

Birds...

How can it fly without fur to fly??

How can it survive without it?

How can it be perfect without it?

How it be call it is part of nature?

How can it be like that?

We...

As a human in faith of GOD..

must forgive each others..

never selfish of what we have or what we are...

do consider tiny dust feelings of others...

IGNORE?

Never always!!!

it will eat u up slice by slice..

even 1% OF IT!!

FRIENDS...^^v

We are always be there for each others...

But REMEMBER!!!

we could not always understand U if not shared together...

YES..

we do sometimes get hurts among friends...

it is part of the friendships..

if U down we'll be there to stand U..

Cry??

cry as much u can..

cuz once u let it out u'll feels better..

But Do REMEMBER..

Learn ur friends feelings...

Learn ur friends way of thinking...

I know its hard but just try!!

at least u get 1 out of 3 percent of it...

Family...(^_^)

the most important of all...

without them u are nothing...

u learn everything from them..

especially the feeling of LOVE...

it exist when u were in ur mother womb

dnt decline it....

its true...

even if u are their mistakes...

even if she wanted u to be his son or daughter...

Randomly saying...

all of this not about u being alone..

or being ignore..

nor being unappreciated...

It is about U being ur self..

and

ACCEPTING WHO YOU REALLY ARE NOW!!!

Hindi Maintidihan Ako.....

Dear birds,

I'm writing this because I dnt really understand what did I done wrong this time?

Because of what i should suffer like this?

do others feels the same situation as me now?

I dnt think so...

cuz i know the other birds dnt do this to others...

maybe its only happens ME...

I LOVE U,

u are the world to me,

without u I'M NOTHING!!

but NOW I Feel that I'm nothing to u BUT a BURDEN on ur shoulder...

Always a Problems to u!!

I do this and its wrong,

I do that and its wrong,

I'm tired from my diving and felt a sleep AND its Still Wrong,

I know that i'm still young even though i'm 21,

 but be respect of me cuz I do have feelings,

I do get hurts,

I do Need a Rest,

I do Need Love from u,

I do Need lots of things.....

I know u are getting older,

and..

I should understand ur situations,

BUT...

theres a limit where i cnt stand IT,

ur STUPIDNESS!!!!!!

NON-UNDERSTANDING...

DONT CARE OF OTHERS FEELINGS...

 Only think of your self...

I had it enough!!

STOP IT!!

STOP IT!!

 I do know that I didn't accomplish much in my life's,

and I didn't makes u proud always,

and u always look to ur Favorite ONE,

thats always makes ur name to the top of the list,

but please...

do remember this....

we'll see how further do ur love one can stand ur attitude,

ur selfishness....

Now i'm still here not because i'm not done with u,

but I still have Love with u..

and because of ur life's partner,

that gave me LIFE's in this world,

.....

....

...

..

.

But still I'm Sorry for what I did and done to make u DisLike me...

but hmmm.....??!

Birds Do Fly Dnt U Thnik???

Why do that bird cnt fly

.....

....

..

.

even though he has perfect wings

.....

....

...

..

.

and excellent land to take off..?

.....

....

...

..

.

why ahh??

...

Should I or Should I not?

Would it be best for Me?

.....

What reason would be best?

Which should I take?

.....

Should I be Proud?

or

Simple be better?

.....

How about my study?

by doing IT may effect my study?

I can be tired by doing IT..

or

May IT effect my relationship with my Besties?

.....

Hmm...

Should I bring them to join me?

it would be nice eh...

but...

I'm not sure what I want...

I dont have the guts to do IT my self...

.....

....

..

.

argh...............

I'll think of It again later...

Miss Na Miss Kita.....^^v

Sitting here,

thinking, dreaming, n resting myself,

replying comments, reading post,

and texting...

DING!!!^^v

hahaha....

Their faces crossed my mind,

missing their smiles, laugh, jokes, voices,

and most important thng is hangout with THEm...

haiz...

i want to call them today but im tired...

why ahh??

so how??

tomorrow then...

^^v cant wait...

weeeeee............

SiLenT StResS!!

Hope that this kind of stress shouldn't be experience by anyone especially someone that I LOVE..

Now I think that I'm in a silent stress that keep on eating part of my mind and heart.

To avoid or run from it I try doing this by....

Staying at home,

Hangout with my friends,

Going away from home all day long,

Having some fun with friends,

Sharing it,

But there is no difference effect it or reduce it,

you can still feels it,

and its like end of the road for me....

This year been a wonderful and most beautiful life's moments for me,

But at the same time its been Stressful n killing my heart bit by bit...

I tried to share it but I don't know how to share it or what to share...

My mind keep on spinning and spinning like it wont stop

And giving me a clue to stop it...

Argh........

This is the 2nd painful stress that I've ever felted before...

And yet I still couldn't overcome it like I use 2 be.. like last time....

Maybe this is what they said that...

 we will never stop learning about something new or unfamiliar in this life...

 Until our heart stop beating....

A Simple Word WHY?

Why are u here?

Why should we take good care of someone feelings?

Why should we do something nice nice to other ppl?

Why do ppl always makes ur mind spin?

Why do someone always dont realise that u care about them?

Why do ppl always says that they understand u but in the real fact is they dont have a clue?

Why do ppl talk about u at ur back?

Why do we need someone else to talk with?

Why do we give reason to cover our feelings?

Why do we prefer sharing our problems with someone that dont really know u?

Why do ppl think that they always been left behind but they dont?

Why do ppl always think that they are right all the time?

Why do ppl always think that they behavior never changed?

Why do ppl always curious about something?

AND

Why do u think that u want to/ should read this kind of post?? 

^^v

I LOVE THEM VERY MUCH!!!!

Argh.....!!!

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cant read it??

wat to do lor....

Moments that makes me SMILES

The moment that i saw them...

The moment that i chatting with them..

The moment that i makes jokes with them..

The moment that i laugh with them...

The moment that i connected to them...

This is the moment that makes me SMILES...

And its feels like im at home with them..

Cant wait to be home 2 KK....

Huakakkakaz...

^^v

THEY ARE THE BEST!!^^v

SAM CYE LEO SON?? ^^v

hmmm...

Its just for 1 day didnt meet them

Makes my world turn upsidedown...

Enjoying myself without them

Makes me no joy at all....

hmmm....

I'm lying that if I says that I dont MISS THEM Much...

I'm lying that I enjoying myself here(Labuan) without THEM...

NOW...

I'm thinking that I should not be here for this business...

I'm thinking that I should go back now...

I'm thinking that I should FastFoward the time to be back home...

I'm thinking that I should call them to hangout...

But now I only can pray for them...

so that they are safe, peace, joy in their HEART..

and

I'll be back safe n meet them again!

Miss na Miss Kita!!!

SAM, LEO, SON!!!

They mean the world to me!!

Hmmmm...Going to Labuan

Should I be or should I not be HAPPy...

haiz....

I'm gonna miss my BESTPWENZ....

Hope That i'm going bck soon after i deal wit my business there...

hahahaha....agak2 lar apa business hehe (connect2)

Then 4 of us hangout kio..hahaha....

Weee~~~~~~

^^v

Friendship's Day Out!!^^v

Borink Time....lolz

♫ you make me Smile ♫^^v

Enjoy the FOODS!!^^v

Erik Santos & Jim Brickman - My Love Is Here

Again I'm Filled with Hope n Dreams^^v

There's nothing to say its just My Feelings!!

^^v

Empty

Is there something missing In Me or In My Life?

Is there something should I Add On to IT??

This kind of feeling really border me up..*sigh!!

The Feeling of EMPTINESS really are sucks!

Maybe you think that I don't have Friends,

Maybe you think that I don't enjoying my life now,

Maybe you think that I get enough attentions,

Or

Maybe you think that I don't get my freedom.

YES I DO HAVE IT ALL!

But why ahh?

Me really dunno this feeling of Emptiness...

HAIZ.......*SIGHT!!